Wearing Badgley Mischka |
Alex Saxon femulating in a 2015 episode of Ray Donovan. |
Regarding my knee replacement surgery...
My Physical Therapist (PT) says I am well ahead of the curve regarding recovery. Pain is mild and infrequent and I am getting around without assistance except when I go up and down stairs when I use a crutch.
PT believes that when I see my doctor/surgeon on Monday, he will probably give me the green light to start driving again (just two weeks after surgery). My fear that I would have difficulty depressing my Subaru’s clutch with my new knee proved to be just fear – my therapist insisted that we test it yesterday and there was no pain using the clutch.
I am a just little anxious about what my leg will look like when the bandages are removed on Monday.
And so it goes.
Barry Scott femulating in the 1970 British film Goodbye Gemini. |
J. Harrison Ghee |
Years ago, I did outreach with three transsexual women for a Human Sexuality class at the University of St. Joseph in West Hartford. We each gave a short biography and then took questions from the class.
It was a large class, all female with approximately 10% asking questions. The question and answer session lasted 90 minutes. I don’t recall any unique questions coming my way, but during the session, I discovered a new possible reason for my desire to crossdress: hormones.
The question that led to this had something to do with what changes the transsexuals experienced after taking hormones. One transwoman mentioned that before taking hormones, viewing a movie like Love Story had no effect, but after taking hormones, she cried like a baby viewing such a film. The other two transwomen agreed that they experienced the same change.
In response, I said that I never took hormones, but all my life, I cried viewing a movie like Love Story.
The professor suggested that perhaps I should be tested by an endocrinologist. I assumed he was inferring that maybe I had an imbalance of hormones, i.e., too many female hormones and/or not enough male hormones. If that is true then it might explain other things… like my feminine breasts and my feminine traits.
Since puberty, my breasts have resembled a female’s breasts rather than a male’s and are able to nearly fill a B cup.
And since forever, I have had feminine mannerisms.
I never affected feminine mannerisms; they are natural to me. My most prominent feminine mannerisms are the way I talked and gestured.
I am very soft-spoken. I use words and phrases in ways that are typically female. And when I talk, I gesture with my hands in a very feminine manner often touching the other person I am conversing with. (That last one really freaks me out when I am in boy mode and touch somebody. I do it unconsciously and after I do it, I worry about a negative reaction from the other person, but so far I have been lucky and no one has called me on it.)
I never saw an endocrinologist, so I don’t know the truth about my hormones. But it would not surprise me that they are naturally balanced in a feminine way.
That’s not to say that some nurturing was not responsible, too. My mother raised me, while my father was absent much of the time while I was growing up (Dad worked two jobs and as much overtime as possible to make ends meet). Lacking a male model, I took after my mother in a lot of ways. So both nurture and nature may have come into play.
Wearing Venus |
Jeffrey Carlson (right) femulating on television’s All My Children. |
Jim Bailey femulating in the 1987 film Penitentiary III. You can view the film on YouTube. |
By Paula Gaikowski
Shaving my legs was a milestone and rite of passage on my transgender journey. There has been nothing more liberating and cathartic than looking down and seeing a pair of women’s legs surface after shaving for the first time.Wearing double hose
However, that wasn’t always possible. I used to worry about what people would say in the summertime if I had shaved my legs. That was an unfounded concern; nobody noticed and if they did, it’s not really any of their business.
Typically, I trimmed my leg hair with clippers and then wear nude color opaque dance tights and wear black pantyhose over them. It worked fine but is very thick and also very warm in the summer.
So I understand the issue and the other day noticed the perfect solution. Ladies in Europe needed a solution to wearing skirts in their frigid winters. Transparent fleece-lined tights are thick fleece lined tights that look like you are wearing black sheer hose. They come in extra heavy and warm, but also in thinner styles.
They can be ordered from a variety of sources on the web, however, it seems black is the most common color with other options being coffee and gray. The product is popular in Asia so many of the vendors are located there. I did find this website offering plus size and tall sizes
Nothing can make you feel more feminine than freshly shaved legs and a new pair of your favorite sheer stockings. However, if it’s cold outside or if you can’t shave, perhaps this will help you get out and about and let that girl loose.
Wearing Saylor |
I had my first physical therapy session at home yesterday and the therapist said I was making good progress.
I am still surprised about the level of pain I am enduring... not much at all and certainly much less than I expected.
Again, I want to thank you all for the positive thoughts you have been sending my way.