Moaning Lisa Smile

I watched the Grammy Awards Monday night primarily to see Eagles perform live one more time. Sans Glenn Frey, Jackson Browne sang lead on “Take It Easy.” That was the highlight of the show for me, although I also enjoyed the Lionel Richie tribute.

I was not familiar with 95% of the rest of the music, so the rest of the show was not of much interest and I headed for bed with an hour of awards left to go. However, just before I shut off the TV, my trans-radar went off when there was a snippet from a music video by Wolf Alice for their song titled “Moaning Lisa Smile.”

I viewed the video on YouTube and the three make members of the band appear en femme throughout the video. See the screen captures of the video above and below or see the video for yourself here.

Wearing Saint Laurent.

Wolf Alice femulates in their music video for "Moaning Lisa Smiles."

Got Stamps

In addition to being an amateur radio operator, I am also a stamp collector or "philatelist" as they say around the Merriam-Webster.

Stamps are like high heel shoes ― there are just too many for one girl to collect them all, so stiletto and stamp collectors specialize. On the stiletto front, I only collect high heels to die for and on the stamp front, I collect stamps from the United Nations (among other countries and specialties).

Perusing the latest stamp collecting news weekly, I was surprised to see that the UN Postal Administration has just issued a series of stamps in conjunction with their Free & Equal campaign for LGBT equality. (Cool!) And one of the stamps in the series honors transgender people. (Very cool!)

That's her on the right.

Wearing Eloquii.

Vittoria Schisano (right) in the 2012 Italian film Tutto Tutto Niente.

DeviantArt Femulators

Here is a recent missive from Pontus:

Hi there Stana,

I have been watching your site for a couple of weeks.

A couple of times you have done a few shout outs to femulators on deviantart (DA). As someone who often visits DA, I thought I`d suggest a few other femulators on DA that you may not have seen before (or maybe you have) to check out.

Pontus was correct ― some I have not seen before and some I have. Anyways, here they are:

Sophiexdresser

Danakpop

Shenzou

Divinesanity

And if you`re interested, you can check out Pontus'contributions to the femulating culture: toons in drag.

Daffy Dusting

Becky Storm

June 1995 Photoshoot

As I wrote here Monday, before they deteriorated, I scanned nearly 300 photos from the 1990s for preservation. I had not viewed most of the photos in years and they brought back a flood of memories that I will share in this and future posts.

I don't recall much about these photos except that I was home alone on a Saturday in June 1995 and decided to do a photoshoot modeling my new to-die-for dress.

In retrospect, looking at these photos, I see a woman, not a man in a dress, but a woman who enjoys being a woman.

Wearing Monique Lhuillier.

All right, Mr. DeMille, I'm ready for my close-up.

Tricia's Favorite Photo (of Tricia!)

Fulfillment of a Lifetime Dream

Tricia Riley, April 2013

Tho’ I have no idea why, since my pre-teens, I have had a fascination with female period dress, especially formal long gowns with crinoline skirts.

Today marks the fulfillment of owning such a garment. Unlike “days of yore” when communications were so primitive, today with the Internet and on-line shopping, Tricia Elizabeth Riley (AKA “Lady Patricia of the Highlands”) has completed her first “dress rehearsal” in a lovely 1700’s style ball gown. A crinoline underskirt would have been too hard to store, so the fact this wonderful creation has collapsible side panniers has more than made up for this.

The colours are a deep pink underskirt and ivory overskirt and top. The bodice is a paisley-covered combination of these colours and features a rose at the bust.

Thus, as soon as practicable this morning, Tricia got herself made up, attached her breast forms and dressed in her best corset and lingerie. Then came the challenge of the dress for the first time. The panniers were tricky for a start, but Tricia soon worked those out.

Then THE moment. On with the dark pink underskirt over the panniers, then the ivory overskirt and detachable “velcroed” bodice. The sleeves are only ¾, so the pink long sleeve gloves purchased to hide the arm hair were a good and necessary investment.

Thence, to the “crowning glory” ― curly blond “Marie Antoinette” wig, long dangly pink and rhinestone earrings,(to match the dress) and a glittering rhinestone necklace. In order to complete the “off to the 17th century ball” picture, a pink with white feather “masked ball mask” was put in place.

The entire dress creation was made for me by E.T. Costumes in Melbourne, Australia. The owner, Christine, did a fabulous job at a very reasonable price.

Will someone please pinch me. Surely I am dreaming all this and I will wake up soon!!. But no… it is for real…

Crossdressing nirvana has been achieved!

Hugs to all!!

Lady Patricia

2016 Update: Sadly Christine passed away after she made this lovely outfit for me. The photo was taken about a month after I wrote about wearing the dress for this first time. This was the first of three professional makeovers by a genius makeup artist, who again, sadly for Tricia has since moved interstate.

P.S. Being a “glutton for punishment,” about a year later I bought a gorgeous “Scarlett O'Hara” Civil War gown from Recollections Inc. in the USA.

If anyone is interested in “Chapter 2” of this “tale,” happy to provide same.

Calling all girls! My open invitation to post your favorite photo along with the story behind it and the reason it is your favorite photo still stands, so don't be shy, send me your fave foto. ― Stana

Wearing Spiegel.

Actress Vittoria Schisano covers Italian Playboy.

Photo Memories: My First Makeover

As I wrote here Monday, before they deteriorated, I scanned nearly 300 photos from the 1990s for preservation. I had not viewed most of the photos in years and they brought back a flood of memories that I will share in this and future posts.

By January 1995, I had been regularly attending support group meetings for over 5 years, but I was still closeted, that is, not going beyond the safe confines of the support group’s meeting place.

A few gurls in my support group attended First Event, an annual transgender convention held in the Boston area and recommended it to me as a way to expand my horizons. I was ready, so I registered for the convention and when the big day arrived, Elaine, another ham radio gurl who I knew as a ham long before I knew her as a gurl, drove us to the convention hotel in Natick, just west of Boston.

After settling in, I began exploring the hotel and here I am in the photo above, trying out the catwalk that was set up for the First Event fashion show. Wow, my hemline is short! I guess some things never change!

Later that day, I sat in and watched Hollywood makeup artist Jim Bridges perform a makeover on another First Event attendee. The transformation was amazing. I was so impressed that I made an appointment for a makeover late Saturday afternoon, so I would look my best for the Saturday night banquet.

It was my first makeover and I was a little nervous going in. How would I look? Would I be disappointed?

Jim's transformation of me was as impressive as the transformation I witnessed earlier. I literally did not recognize myself when he was finished. "Is that really me?" I wondered when I looked in the mirror for the first time after the makeover.

After the makeover, I returned to my room to get dressed for the banquet. I was anxious to show off the new me and when I finally made my grand entrance, my friends and acquaintances did not recognize me either… in a good way.

Wearing ML Monique Lhuillier.

Singer Jordan Gray

Acceptance and Rejection

At the 2015 Transgender Lives Conference

There are two conferences in the Spring that I try to attend and present at: True Colors Conference and Transgender Lives Conference.

There was a call for workshops at these conferences in the fall and I submitted proposals to both. My proposed workshops were basically the same for both conferences.

True Colors Conference accepted my workshop proposal soon after the deadline for workshop submissions had passed.

Transgender Lives Conference rejected my proposal long after the deadline had passed. The reason given for rejection was that my workshop “didn't fit in with health and law.”

Last year, my workshop didn’t fit in with health and law, but it was accepted. A good time was had by those who attended and the workshop “got good reviews.”

Needless to say, I am upset and very disappointed and I will not attend the conference.

Wearing Ann Taylor.

Alex Lutz and Bruno Sanches in French television's Catherine et Liliane

Polaroids and Kodachromes

1990, The Big Hair Era

A few days ago, I happened upon my collection of film photographs (as opposed to digital photographs).

I noticed that the 40 or so Polaroid SX-70 photographs in the collection were starting to deteriorate, that is, the white frames surrounding the images were coming apart. So I decided to scan all the Polaroids before they deteriorated further.

Then I noticed that the color was fading in some of the Kodachromes in the collection, so I decided to scan all the Kodachromes, too.

I finished the job on Saturday scanning almost 300 photographs in all.

I have not looked at most of these photos in ages and in my opinion, they confirm the old saying “youth is wasted on the young.”

I was in my late 30s through my late 40s in those photos and "Damn!" I look good in those old photos. I can see how my femulating skills improved over the years, but even early on, I could have safely gone out as a woman amongst the civilians, but did not because I thought my height would give me away. What a waste!

I was 39-years-old in the accompanying photo taken at the first support group meeting I ever attended (Connecticut Outreach Society). It was also the first time I had ever left home as a woman that was not Halloween-related.

I recall feeling awkward and very nervous and as a result, sweated profusely at the meeting. I thought that I did not belong with these men in dresses and I swore I would never come back. But I did come back… again and again and again.

Wearing Catherine Malendrino.

Alan Cummings

Number Nine

Nine is the number of years that I have been blogging Femulate.

(Friday was the blog's 9th birthday, but I was so busy the last few days that I forgot about it until now.)

What can I say?

The blog is as popular as ever (averaging over 5,200 hits per day during the past month). I receive lots of e-mails everyday related to the blog.

About once or twice per week, I receive an e-mail from a girl saying that the blog motivated her to get out of the closet and experience the world as the woman she really is.

That makes it all worthwhile!