My mother dreamed of having a daughter because her first born child was a son. Her idea of the perfect family was husband, wife, first born son and second born daughter. My father's sperm thought otherwise. I remember crying as a little tyke that my mother did not love me because I was not a girl. She consoled me but her discipline was a lot more punishing than that given to my older brother. It wasn't until puberty that my desire to wear women's clothing broke through my boyhood. I do wonder sometimes if there was some genetic factor that pushed my physical body towards female because I never had the muscle mass most boys had.
I think my mom went to the same housewife school as your mother and she also had two boys. I was the second. When I was small sometimes when we were at her sister's home mom would dress me up like a girl to play with my cousins. I don't know when she stopped doing it because I don't have specific memories, but my cousins showed me photos of myself in their dresses and skirts. I looked like a girl when I wore them.
Not knowing my past history, when I was around ten I asked my mom if I could be a girl for Halloween. She said, "yes!"
That began a series of Halloweens when I went out as a girl. Mom was always laughing and would tell people, "Michael is such a clown. He wants to be a girl for Halloween. So why not?
I looked forward to those Halloweens and the last time mom helped me dress up I wore some of her nylons and nice dress as if I was a pretty teenager.
Many years later when mom passed away she had no idea that I never stopped dressing up as a girl and woman. It's still thrilling to me.
My mother dreamed of having a daughter because her first born child was a son. Her idea of the perfect family was husband, wife, first born son and second born daughter. My father's sperm thought otherwise. I remember crying as a little tyke that my mother did not love me because I was not a girl. She consoled me but her discipline was a lot more punishing than that given to my older brother. It wasn't until puberty that my desire to wear women's clothing broke through my boyhood. I do wonder sometimes if there was some genetic factor that pushed my physical body towards female because I never had the muscle mass most boys had.
ReplyDeleteI think my mom went to the same housewife school as your mother and she also had two boys. I was the second. When I was small sometimes when we were at her sister's home mom would dress me up like a girl to play with my cousins. I don't know when she stopped doing it because I don't have specific memories, but my cousins showed me photos of myself in their dresses and skirts. I looked like a girl when I wore them.
DeleteNot knowing my past history, when I was around ten I asked my mom if I could be a girl for Halloween. She said, "yes!"
That began a series of Halloweens when I went out as a girl. Mom was always laughing and would tell people, "Michael is such a clown. He wants to be a girl for Halloween. So why not?
I looked forward to those Halloweens and the last time mom helped me dress up I wore some of her nylons and nice dress as if I was a pretty teenager.
Many years later when mom passed away she had no idea that I never stopped dressing up as a girl and woman. It's still thrilling to me.
Michael