Yes, I am very comfortable.
I admit that before I take that first step out the door en femme, I am a little hesitant. Part of it is due to fear and part of it is due to awe.
“Fear” that something may go wrong. (Except for wardrobe and automobile malfunctions nothing has ever gone wrong.)
“Awe” that I am actually going out en femme and functioning as a woman in society.
I hesitate for only a moment or two, then push myself out the door.
As soon as I hear the click of my high heels on the floor, pavement, sidewalk, or wherever I take those first steps, I stop thinking about being en femme because at that point, I am femme.
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| Wearing New York & Company |
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| Ronnie Barker femulating on British televisions’s The Two Ronnies. |
The click & clack of High Heels as you walk out...and about is just so Delicious.
ReplyDeleteThe Sound Warms my Heart EveryTime......
"Awe" yes I am still elated when I am out as a woman, for SO many years I never thought it would be and yet here I am .....
ReplyDeleteVelmas' recollection....
ReplyDeleteThere is that first time....
The first time sneaking out of the house, and into my pickup truck, as Velma was a most liberating experience.
I would look at my face and red lips in my rear view mirror, and I would simply giggle and laugh! I could not believe 'she' was ME.
Every encounter was a revelation--
I really liked going through the Bojangles Drive-thru...
Velma
The first year of going out was getting ready and then hesitating at the door. Now it’s am I good enough? Yup. Off I go!
ReplyDeleteOh the Two Ronnies. A rainy weekend with them, Dave Allen and Benny Hill fixes all troubles!
'As soon as I hear the click of my high heels on the floor, pavement, sidewalk, or wherever I take those first steps, I stop thinking about being en femme because at that point, I am femme.'
ReplyDeleteSo true!
I have been out in public visibility, if not 'out' in the social sense, for 25 years, and travelled enfemme around most of the UK , NYC , Sweden, Germany and Melbourne ( wonderful city ) the fear rapidly goes.
Other than avoiding upsetting loved ones who don't wish to know, my rather solitary life presenting as a woman has had few bounds. I only wish I could confront the remaining family demons and come out to all.
Hugs
Maggie Robbins
UK