Actually, the answer is simple.
I have never wished that I was not a crossdressing feminine man.
On the other hand, I have wished that I was the woman I have always wanted to be even if it erased my relationships of the past (like Jimmy Stewart in It's A Wonderful Life.)
I wish I could do it all over again and if I could, I would not have married (and put my wonderful wife through the ups and downs of being married to a crossdresser). Instead, I would have lived as a woman full-time and definitely gotten electrolysis, maybe HRT and probably not surgery.
But since I can't do it over again, I have played with the cards I have dealt to myself.
My life has been very interesting. I have achieved some success as a writer (a goal that I had since I was a youngster) and I have also achieved some success as a femulator (another goal that I had since I was a teenager). And I achieved something that I never even considered: success as a femulating writer!
Wearing Torrid (Source: Torrid) |
Aquaria femulates Melania Trump on television's RuPaul's Drag Race. |
It would be interesting to see what my life would have been like if, as a teenager or when I moved out of my parents' house, I decided to Just Be Out and see where it went.... Instead of just being terrified of anyone finding out who I really was.
ReplyDeleteI mean, I wish I was dressing daily when I weighed 118 and had hair past my shoulders!
Stana, Your comments mirror my own thoughts in many ways. Had I known what I know now, I may have made different life choices. But I have to be honest, I don't regret the life I've painted for myself, and the wonderful wife, who gave me beautiful children, and has supported me all the way.
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Sally
I think I would make the wish to be able to change my gender whenever I wanted to .... of course with a gorgeous female body .....
ReplyDeleteIt's so great you have such a positive attitude! Actually, this article leads me to a bit of a follow up question, which is: What's preventing you now from pursuing electrolysis and HRT?
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