I have mentioned my dreams here a few times in the past. I seldom recall them when I wake up, but the ones I do recall always have a trans theme.
Over the years, my dreams have gone through a few stages.
The first stage, which lasted for many years were dreams about getting dressed en femme or trying to get dressed en femme and not being able to do so because something prevented me or because I woke up before I was got dressed.
The second stage, which lasted a year or so were dreams about getting dressed en femme, then going out and encountering friends and family who approved of my dressing.
The third and most recent stage, which has lasted for a year or so are dreams where I am dressed all the time, that is, I do not get dressed in the dream, rather I am dressed as a woman from the get-go. Getting dressed is not part of these dreams because I am living as a woman full-time or I am a woman in these dreams (it is unclear which is the case).
Last night, I had an unusual dream. I don't think it is a new stage, but it is an interesting twist to my dreams. In last night's dream, I was married to a male and we attended the "Big E" as a husband and wife (the Big E, also known as the Eastern States Exposition, is a huge annual state fair for all six New England states).
In real life, I often go to the Big E, but never en femme. Also, in real life, I am not attracted to males. So go figure!
My female dreams have had a similar progression.
ReplyDeleteI think as we embrace and open our natural feminity during the day, then at night her dreams are open to us instead of being denied.
I too am married, known since age of 8 and even have Gynecomastia.
Your Avon meeting was an example of being Stana, its no longer passing, its who you are.
I am at that stage and my Susan dreams have been growing.
I had one where I was in bed with my husband and we were intimate. But it was very caring, romantic and way more mental than physical.
It bothered me at first because of the underly homosexual component. However, I was told that it was more like a female sexual dream.
It was Susan expressing her fantasy and therefore herself (which is part of me).
So, go with it and embrace Stana fully. It will include these dreams which Stana always had but now you can embrace them.
Remember when as a guy you may have had dreams but you never acted on them.
I enjoy your discussions of your dreams. I think you may be on to something regarding the stages. I tend to think that dreams do reflect a degree of what is happening in real life. Like you, most of my dreams have a 'dressing' component. Over the years some have been more vivid and memorable than others but I find my dreams pleasant, refreshing, affirming and enjoyable. They are so nice that I feel bad about what non-gender gifted folks may dream.
ReplyDeleteI have been keeping a written log of my dreams. When I have one that I can remember I write it down.
Pat
Dreams reveal a lot. As of late, I almost never dream. It would be good to hear about yours, Stana.
ReplyDeleteI will pass them along when I remember them, Billie.
DeleteMy female dreams have had a similar progression.
ReplyDeleteI think as we embrace and open our natural feminity during the day, then at night her dreams are open to us instead of being denied.
I too am married, known since age of 8 and even have Gynecomastia.
Your Avon meeting was an example of being Stana, its no longer passing, its who you are.
I am at that stage and my Susan dreams have been growing.
I had one where I was in bed with my husband and we were intimate. But it was very caring, romantic and way more mental than physical.
It bothered me at first because of the underly homosexual component. However, I was told that it was more like a female sexual dream.
It was Susan expressing her fantasy and therefore herself (which is part of me).
So, go with it and embrace Stana fully. It will include these dreams which Stana always had but now you can embrace them.
Remember when as a guy you may have had dreams but you never acted on them.