Before embarking on an extended time out en femme (like my trip to Hamvention this week), there is always some trepidation.
This morning, I awoke at 4 AM and could not fall back to sleep because I was thinking about all that could go wrong during my trip. By the time I got out of bed nearly two hours later, I was so agitated that I seriously considered cancelling my plans.
Mind you, all of my past extended times out en femme have been wonderful positive and affirming experiences with nary a problem.
So why do I worry?
It is my nature to worry. Always has been. And my biggest worry is that since I have never had any problems in the past, I am way overdue to have a problem.
That's the half-empty glass perspective; I need to concentrate on the half-full glass perspective, which is that since I never had a problem, I must be doing things right and if I continue to do things right, my track record should continue unblemished.
Now, that should be my mantra!
You will do great and have a fantastic time.
ReplyDeleteI won't say to stop worrying because I have you beat in that category and it would be hypocritical of me to say that.
Worry is a habit not a nature.
ReplyDeleteYour nature is divine, litterally. As a human I think you are divine as well. I struggled for years with worry,until I realized I was not loving my self. I let it go and came to believe that what other people think of me is none of my business.
Enjoy the rest of your trip. I am with you
M
Stana,
ReplyDeleteYou sounded like you were channeling ME when you wrote today's post!
I wish I could get up to CT for a Thelma-and-Louise trip to OH! :)
Savor the emotion. Being tense and on edge brings its own heightened sense of excitement to every experience.
ReplyDeleteThere are many emotions that are hard wired into the human psyche. They are part of being human. Enjoy the ride.
Pat
You are smart to worry a little because it helps you visualize your plans and hone your execution dear.
ReplyDeleteIf your worry truly becomes obsessive, that's no problem either. Categorically attack each compulsion with a plan and before your know it you will have Mastered your journey.
Enjoy your quest. Sounds like fun.
Terry