Sister blogger, Calie, the brains behind the operation known as T-Central, invited me to guest post on her blog. I was honored that she asked me and I happily accepted her invitation. My guest post now appears there.
By the way, I am getting over my illness. Today, I feel about 80% “normal,” as compared to 50% yesterday and 0% on Sunday. Thank you all for your well wishes!
Dear Stana,
ReplyDeleteAs a relatively new (about 3 months) reader and fan of your lovely Femulate.Org blog, I loved reading your autobiographical guest article on T-Central. I learned a little more about you. I am similar to you in many ways. I identify strictly as a crossdresser. I love dressing, making up, acting, feeling, and talking as a woman. But, I am OK with being a guy, also. I have never felt like a “woman trapped in a man's body”. I would probably like to present myself as a woman more than I currently do, but I am rather lazy and laid-back by nature, and it's so much easier to dress and go out as a guy. When I have the time and motivation to crossdress, I absolutely adore it.
Like you, I crossdress on average about twice a month (although I hope to increase that frequency to about once a week). Unlike you, I wouldn't choose to live the rest of my life 24/7 as a woman, although I certainly understand the appeal of that. If there were a good reason, I certainly would be willing to live as a woman for an extended period from a few weeks to a few months from time to time. I have attended 3 Southern Comfort Conferences (SCC) in Atlanta, and I loved dressing exclusively in women's clothing and presenting as a woman for 5 to 7 days at a time there. If there were a “crossdresser retreat” where the participants could live full-time as women for 1 to 3 months, I would be very interested in participating.
Like you, I was content being a boy growing up. I played baseball, softball, stickball, pickup basketball, and touch football. I enjoyed them (especially the baseball-related sports). I also did not like sports pain or macho toughness, so touch football was quite “tough” enough for me. Unlike you, I acted in a typically masculine way (not macho or misogynistic or tough, but just average masculinity). That was natural for me. I feel for your emotional pain when you were taunted as being effeminate and called awful names, but I did not experience any of that. Apparently, I was boyish enough that no one picked up on my secret inner feminine fantasies.
I always loved girls and womens clothing, and had constant fantasies of girls in my school dressing me up completely in girls clothing (especially frilly panties, slips, petticoats, and gorgeous party and prom dresses). Very typically, I started trying on my mother's clothing in secret at about 8 – 10 years old, and was instantly “hooked for life” in the indescribable joy of ensconcing myself in women's clothing.
As we have learned in email exchanges between us, we are very close in height (you 6-2, me 6-1) and weight, and age (you are 7 years younger than I). These are more similarities that make me feel like a very kindred spirit to you. I love your open-mindedness and tolerance and respect and support of gay and lesbian people. Diversity is delicious and wonderful. You are a lovely woman, Stana.
Love,
Sheila.